It's another day, another dollar, and already the plans have changed 364827856 times. Okay, so that's pretty much normal.
Despite what's going on, I can't help but think of home. What is everybody else doing right now? I miss the late summer in Mac. It's the perfect time of year for meandering late night walks, taking me to and fro across the town.
Sometimes I actually miss working at Wal Mart. Yeah, it was a bit of a dead-end lifestyle, but there was something about the quiet desperation of such that made it... serene? My friends and I would wake up late, work part time in the middle of the day, and party until late at night. There was a warm feeling of "this is it" that summer after senior year. We knew we were in the middle of our last chance to be the old group of friends...
Look at me now.
I joined up all hooah-hooah, expecting to go out and single-handedly win the war on terror, but my, have my attitudes changed. Right now, I'm just trying to make it through. I love my girl. And that's what's keeping me going. The thought of a bright future with her.
So what'll it be like, going back? I have the feeling that my friends will still be living that carefree, but moderately self-destructive lifestyle that I left behind out of necessity. God, I miss everyone. I hate to be such a geek, but I have a feeling that I'll be like Frodo returning to the shire after his sojourn. Only time will tell.
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Ah, Lord Of The Rings. Who's the geek now? ;)
ReplyDeleteYou really have changed since this time last year. But the thing is, the past is exactly what it is... the past. Today's a gift, that's why it's the present. And the future isn't so bad either.
I really can't offer many answers on this, but the one thing I can assure you is that I will be more than welcoming when you come back. But you already know that. The rest, we leave to time.
I love you, mein schatzchen.
~Marina